Trying too hard

So, I've had a migraine for two days now. It's letting up, but now I have that "migraine hangover" to drag me down.

When my head is on fire, I eat. So, I imagine the scale is not going to have anything nice to say tomorrow, but I'll get on it anyway.

Anyway, the real point of this post is that I'm spending so much energy "trying" that I don't spend any on "doing". I set goals that get left behind as soon as the least thing gets in my way. I worry that I'm not getting strong enough fast enough, so I'm paralyzed into sitting still.

This has become retarded in the truest meaning of the word.

There is no "try". There is only "do". "Do not" is not an option.