I am sick of me

It's starting to feel like I just make rules so I can break them. I set goals so I can fail on purpose. I'm not sure why. I like when people compliment me, when they tell me I'm doing a good job. It makes no sense that I should constantly sabotage myself.

It occurred to me this morning (after eating like a pig yesterday and being sick to my stomach until three in the morning and then deciding not to go for a run) that my problem is that I'm thinking like a 43 year old woman with a job and a husband and dogs and not like an athlete. If the goal is to run in the 2012 Volkslauf, I need to think like an athlete at least in regards to what I put in my body and what I do with my body.

So, I ran a search for "think like an athlete". I came up with three useful articles and wrote down the information in them. The top three pieces of advice as far as I was concerned were:

1. Break down the goal into three month increments.
2. What you eat, what you drink and how you train are all within your power.
3. Be flexible, life is always changing. You don't give up on your plans, you adjust.

There were other things I wrote down, but these three things seemed the most concrete to me. So, be prepared for some goal setting posts and some schedule posts and more frequent reporting on my calorie intake and workouts. I can do this.